Saturday, February 9, 2008

Feb 8

Today was kinda rough. I didn't want to go to work. I have found that I really hate what I do and I want to try and better myself. My little sister is turning 14 the weekend and I feel she is better than me already. I feel like she has made my parents proud and I never have. I am tired of being the way I am. My parents were never very religious people until just recently. My mom found god after a doctor found a blood clot in her leg. I feel like no one has ever believed in me. My little sister is the "best child". She bows down to my parents so quickly. I cant do that. I never want to be that way. I am tired of being used and taken advantage of. I want to be appreciated for who I am and who I became. I followed my parents dream of becoming a hairstylist. My mom wanted to do that all her life. I decided to do that for the first 6 years that I worked. I am tired of customer service. I hate grumpy people. I hate people that don.t understand that it wasn't my fault. People are so critical. I wish the world would just lighten up.